may day may day

This may be a ridiculous and nonsensical post and I'm not apologizing.

Because... May.

Jaysus. (Mary and Joseph.)

It's been an exhausting and emotional month. If you were to ask me about this pregnancy, I would describe it in one word: MORE. I THOUGHT that I was supposed to be all easy, breazy and have this no-big-deal-i've done this before type of attitude but (MAN) that is just NOT happening. I feel MORE emotional and MORE crazy and MORE MORE MORE of everything. I finally had a bit of an emotional meltdown last week and I feel much better now. I guess I've been feeling a little like this pregnancy has gotten no attention (from me) and a little like I already know (ish) some of the emotions that come with having a newborn and I alternate between being terrified of those emotions and not being able to contain myself with excitement to feel them.

We have been to both St. Louis (yes, again.) and Tulsa in the last few weeks and (other than a brief planned trip to Memphis in July) I am refusing to go out of town until this baby comes out.

(Expect posts re: St. Louis and Tulsa trips in the next few days!)